finally...i hv my answer...

today very tired
tat guy too
more than me
v went to a place together

but i dun hv happy feeling
n unexpectedly i hv little sad feeling
dunno if its bcoz of v talked about tat 2 'child'
or my 'lover'
haiz...
y tis happen to me???
tis question i keep asking myself recently
but no answer
if got
its muz be 'bcoz tis ur fate'
haiz...

lastly i come to a decision
or more accurate is a clear answer to myself

i dun like tat guy n dunwan think about tat 2 'child' again
tat guy is only a person tat can keep me happy when i m in bad mood
thx to him to accompany me everytime i nid him
n sorry if i coz him to involve in 'gossips'
i m very clear now he is not the guy i m looking for
sorry to said tat he is not qualified enough
...from the mind aspect
so now he is only a very important ppl in my life
same important as my 'lover'
n maybe he can only go as far as my fake bf
not the real one
haha...
really think myself is very cruel

n an advise to my fellow frens
its not mean tat a pair of girl n boy is in a relationship
if only bcoz of they hv close 'contact'
tat is only a very normal act of two very gud fren
dun think so much
plz think simple
i m very annoyed by tis kind of ppl thinking recently
if i hv to stay away from my 'very gud fren'
juz bcoz of tis 'traditional n rural thinking'
then i muz b a very conservative girl
same like my grandmother =='
so plz
be a modern n 'new thinking' ppl
be a open-minded ppl
although myself oso sometimes mistaken about boy n girl relationships
but i dun really like to gossip about tat
juz wait until the truth revealed
so plz
dun b so sensitive

especially tat 2 'child'
think so much
plz...i will tell u all if i hv any bf
dun guess n ask ppl around if u r confuse about my 'status'
juz come to ask me
dun coz ppl to spreading about my 'in a relationship status'
tis really annoying n hurts ppl feelings

sorry to bcome so emotive
but i juz wan to espress my feeling here...
dunwan scold anyone tat is innocent
tats all tis time
nite...