Stepping Into A Whole New Life

two more weeks n i will continue my study life...

many things to prepare

n i hv done half of it

i didnt worry much about the preparation

as my mom will keep reminding me

lucky daughter

my feeling nw is

>>happy+not willing+worry+unexplainable<<

HAPPY bcuz i m going to leave my hometown to a new city for a new life

i will own the 'freedom' tat i wished i could hv for a long time

i will oso meet new frens thr n maybe a boyfren :P

NOT WILLING for sure is refers to my family n frens

really hard to leave all those love life

but i noe i will own it anytime i wan :S

WORRY to be independent

as i never be alone all the time

my family n frens will always thr to help me around

when i was scare, i was wrong n i was helpless

n nw i hv to face it more than before by myself

all by myself --- ALONE @@

UNEXPLAINABLE feelings tat filled my heart nw

i dunno wat will happen thr

i m scare, i m worry, n i m really afraid

but at the same time i m expecting it (?o?)

1st time i m leaving my home n live outside

1st time i leave my caring parents

1st time i felt i hv really grown up n hv to be independent

1st time i m stepping into a social n real world

so many 1st times

but i will accept all of tis

n i hv to be

tis is a process in our life

i noe tis long time ago

n i m a person who is really realistic

not materialitic but always follow the reality

although i love to dream about so many things

i will try so hard to be strong

weak-hearted but strong enough to face the reality

as all my frens do

i noe my family & frens will gv me full support along my way...^^