many things to prepare
n i hv done half of it
i didnt worry much about the preparation
as my mom will keep reminding me
lucky daughter
my feeling nw is
>>happy+not willing+worry+unexplainable<<
HAPPY bcuz i m going to leave my hometown to a new city for a new life
i will own the 'freedom' tat i wished i could hv for a long time
i will oso meet new frens thr n maybe a boyfren :P
NOT WILLING for sure is refers to my family n frens
really hard to leave all those love life
but i noe i will own it anytime i wan :S
WORRY to be independent
as i never be alone all the time
my family n frens will always thr to help me around
when i was scare, i was wrong n i was helpless
n nw i hv to face it more than before by myself
all by myself --- ALONE @@
UNEXPLAINABLE feelings tat filled my heart nw
i dunno wat will happen thr
i m scare, i m worry, n i m really afraid
but at the same time i m expecting it (?o?)
1st time i m leaving my home n live outside
1st time i leave my caring parents
1st time i felt i hv really grown up n hv to be independent
1st time i m stepping into a social n real world
so many 1st times
but i will accept all of tis
n i hv to be
tis is a process in our life
i noe tis long time ago
n i m a person who is really realistic
not materialitic but always follow the reality
although i love to dream about so many things
i will try so hard to be strong
weak-hearted but strong enough to face the reality
as all my frens do
i noe my family & frens will gv me full support along my way...^^